My head hurts... I had a awful day today. Nothing went as planned. I went to my old high school and that ghetto mofo place wouldn't let me in. They sed they didn't allow vistors which is such bullshit. So now I had an hour to do nothing. So I went to my friends house. I spent some time with him...cleaning his room because it was his birthday. He's now 19 years old. But then after that I went to pick up my friend from school which was my orignal plan and I was like 5 minutes late and he wasn't there. I was so pissed. My head was hurting by then. So now I was mad and had a bad headache. When I got home, the only thing that made me really happy was a tape my loving Lita dongsang sent to me came today. It was great. I got to see my Taya love hoola hoop. ^_________^ And I saw them doing Wolf and Sheep in black baggy pants and black fitted vests! =D~~ Sexy sexy sexy...my jaw dropped when I saw that performance. I also got to see my Taya be a dork in this skit when he fell in love wit his friends noona. He all wiped his snot on her shirt when he was crying for her and stuff. I actually didn't get mad because it was so funny. Oh in this one part, he dropped his ice cream cone on purpose trying to be cute, so the girl could feed him some of hers but she just leaned down and picked up the cone from the floor and fed it to him. >.< I laughed so hard. Yeah I didn't finish watching the tape. Boo. And I couldn't enjoy it all because my head kept hurting so when the stuff I saw come on, I popped some painkillers. Head was hurting and I wanted it to go away. But besides that, I didn't even page David. I wanted to be all...you know...NOT in pain when I left him voice mail. So I just didn't though I said I would. Tomorrow no matter what I have to page him. I gotta stop being a typical guy that says Im gonna call then doesn't. I hate that. Anyway, besides my painful headache, I feel as if I've been neglecting my Taya. *huGz Taya* I've been talking about other guys, and not enough about him. Though my friends say otherwise, -they are so sick of him- I need to give him snaps, -like I don't ever other day- and show off his over all sexiness. I've been meaning to scan these before, but I didn't get too because...I'm lazee like that sometimes. But not today. All these pics are mine, I spent over 30$ getting these because I bought them in a stack though I scanned 4. Hehehe. A vision in black Though he's only wearing a black leather coat, he looks damn fine in it. A real angel Angels wear white...and there you go. ^o^ he is the ultime dream come true. Lookat the intensity of those eyes... -sigh- I fell in love all over again. I swear he can't be human...he's too beautiful.The angel with no wings... He is so fucking beautiful. He is has to be the most beautiful, perfect, amazing, eatherial, god-like, wingless angel on this earth. And those words don't even do him justice. He's like thisclose to being a god. If he's not already. -sigh- Okay, I plan to pay total trubite to him on Valentines Day since he's the only one worth me blogging about entirly. And you know, I'm gonna put my writting skillz to use that day. I paid truibute to Hyukie once before, but that wasn't love, that was just admiration for his godlyness. Hehehe. But we'll wait until that day arrives. I finally started sending out Don't Cry Baby I have'nt gotten any requests to get out of my list so that's good. hehehe I should start adverstising though. I just asked my Babydoll if she could make me a ban ban. She's like one of the best people I know that can make beautiful ban ban's and posters. I need to expan this thing so I can get more readers. I don't wanna write for nothing, though I like to sometimes. Hahaha Babydoll didn't notice the "evil" HyukTa pic I posted both here and in Delphain. hahahaha. She's like O.O OROOOO. Hahahahaha I'm guessing she likes it. sarcasm She's a big HyukTa dan. Hehehehe. She's off to change the layout and make my ban ban. Cool. In which case I better write. One Luv~* Thursday, February 8, 2001 - 07:50 p.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ] [ back up ] 
I figure I should show a picture of the guy I'm blogging after. That's David...this guy...I'm..."talking" too. I think he's pretty damn cute, not worth me getting crazy and trying to get my hair done nicely for him but yeah cute enough for me to title a blog about him and show the world his pic. Hahahhaaa ^^;;; if he knew I did this I don't think he'd ever send me another pic again. Hahahahs so shuuuuuuuuuush. ^^;;;;; Anyway, I'm going to meet him in New York this Saturday. I'm a little nervous. I usually don't look my best when I m suppost too, but when I'm at home...something like this happens...T.T I think it's one of the best pictures I've EVER taken. Even my proffessional pics didn't come out that nice. I look like this on the regular... Sometimes I wear glasses..most of the time I dont. Those are my new frames. I call them my silver Woo Hyuk frames. hehehhee. Anyway, I'm a little nervous about meeting David....I mean he looks like the type that should be with a beauty queen...T.T all cute guys I think are hot usually turn out to be, or have one of the three problems: 1.Taken 2.Gay 3.Or both of the above. It never fails...I can pick'em. And I sure as hell have a werid feelings SOMETHING is wrong with David. Because sure he seems like a sweet guy online...but...you know that's online. He can be completly different face to face, which is scary....I'm not going alone by the way. I'm going with my friend...we're fine. I'm not brain dead...duhhh... So yeah, he's worth me dropping my 2 cents about him in this blog since it's titled after him. I really shouldn't have done that...but for lack of a better title on a totally random blog, it'll be David for now. Hahahah. Moving on from David, here's the ONLEE pic of Micki Eyes from Drunken Tigers...T.T so upsetting...It's all small and stuff T.T My scanner decided to be evil to me tonight and not blow it up right. =P It scanned the whole booklet and though I cropped it so it would be just Micki Eyes, the evil scanner did that instead. I'll try again later. I feel like I'm betrayling my TAYA!!!!!! T.T No way...he know I love him most and formost. ^.^ But yeah...spoeaking of which, I'm SO MAD at everyone in the H.5.T...well no I can't say that...I'm mad at Aein, Victoria and Mushi...T.T they were all so mean to my baby. *hUGZ Taya* Dun worry baby, they don't love you like me. Graciee posted up new pictures of all the H.O.T memebers and then like everyone gave their random comment...you know whatevers and THOSE THREE ABOVE said he looked stupid, whatever wuthever T.T HATERS....dude, he didn't pose that way on purpose. It's not like he was like OH let me look like I'm falling over because I can. NO...the photgraphers prolly made him. And I can't remember who but they said, oh he's trying to look hardcore...IF NEED BE, I will pull up every Kang Ta pose where he looks the SAME EXACT freakin way...that's his usual intense stare. He's like imfamous for it. UGH....NO ONE gets away wit dissin him cuz that was just mean. Yeah and other thing, Hee Jun didn't excatly look GQ in all his posses EITHER...neither did Hyukie neither did Tony... OKAY THANK YOU, NEXT Now before I get all pissed off and start a war, I have a flow added in by Hush (woo woo) hehehe "Whattaya lookin' at? You're all a bunch of fukkin assholes. You know why? 'Cause you don't have the guts to be what you wanna be. You need people like me. You need people like me so you can point your fukkin fingers, and say "that's the bad girl." So, what dat make you? Good? You're not good; you just know how to hide. Howda lie. Me, I don't have that problem. Me, I always tell the truth--even when I lie. So say goodnight to the bad girl. It was sent to her by one of her friends which is all Hush. ^.^ -sigh- I also got to talk to Kara 2day!!! Wooooo -waves to Kara- Miss you love!!!!!!!!! And I hope whenever you get done doing whateverz, we'll talk like we use to. -waves to Jekkie girl yet again- hehhee sweetie, good luck trying to get me to say his name. He will forever b...THAT BOI....mwhahahaha >) Good challenge though. Anyone else wanna try? hehehee One Luv~* Wednesday, February 7, 2001 - 11:14 p.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ] [ back up ] I had a life today...finally. Today I was suppost to have english at 8AM and then 5 hours in between and then math at 2. But instead I woke up got dressed and headed to my friends house. I slept at her house until 9 AM and then we both got up and then left for her classes. She had chem and Korean. T.T chem is an ancient form of torture. I had never been sooooooo bored in my life. On the upside I drew some really cool looking thingyz all over my notebook. A dragon...etc etc. Hehehe. Then we had Korean class. That was pretty cool. I walked away with more knowledge. Of course by this time, it was 10 to 1...and I have class at 2. It takes me 1/2 an hour to get to campus. So I figured I had some time. I went to the post office and left my friend at home, because yeah she made me drive. =P Lazee sack of poo. I had a little less then 15 minutes to get to class and I was still on the road. So I risked it, and sped. I got to campus under 5 minutes. I started walking very fast to class which took another 5 minutes. Less then five minutes left. I run into the building where I have class I check inside and NO ONE was there. The class was canceled. T.T But my day was pretty damn cool. As I went home, I put in the new CD I just borrowed from my friend, Drunken Tiger's Second, The Great Rebirth. It's sooooooooooooooo phat. I love this. I can't wait till I get it myself. It's what I won from UnWorthy. hehehe. Anyway, Some of my favorite songs on this CD are in English which just makes it all the cooler. One of the songs called The Movement which featured Tasha from Tashannie, was phat. This is her verse: I'm quick to to start a conflict I'm quick to fuckin' comment on how I choose to flip it the lovely way I spit it lyricaly constipated until I choose to shit it rid it it all in your face just to say I did it it prohibits me way you come across end your flows like menopause state of confusion or could it be just an illusion rhyme seep out like fusion just enuff to blur your vision I rock shit when I'm tested watch me leave the mic molested. Phat verse. She's gritty man. Hehehehe but it's still cool. Another one of my favorite lines, that just made me laugh so hard was this one, the song was called Umalis Bar ...this offical lyrical matter of fluid is in my bladder that'll hit you like a punchline you couldn't touch mine if you was a pedolphile and I was only nine.... WOOOOOOOO and Micki eyes is sooo hot....I should scan the pics later when I blog tonight. hahaha okay, that's all for now, I have to write before I get carried away. I wanna finished up Don't Cry Baby so I can start sending it out too. ^.~* One Luv~* Wednesday, February 7, 2001 - 03:52 p.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ] [ back up ] My day was full today and can you believe I wasn't able to do anything? I had art class and public speaking today. But in art, I was soooooooo unhappy when this guy...some wacko that's hyped on art lingo asked me for my number T.T;;; He's got some major talent I'll admit that, but let's face it, he's no Kang Ta. -far from it...faaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrr from it- He's a tad on beat side. He's just a nice guy that likes anime as much as I do...if not more..o.O. I felt bad if I said, no you can't have my number....so I gave it to him. Pity....and he actually called. T.T I didn't pick up though. I just let it ring and if he calls tomorrow I guess I'll pick up....if I can hear it...which I prolly won't be able to since my phone is in my room and I'm in the living room blasting Gackt, Utada Hikaru, Glay, Luna Sea, Utena songs...whatever...so yeah that was a little disturbing. AND my friend who was there totally found it humorus. I'm ever so glad I provided entertainment. The same friend asked me to go with her somewhere after school so I can meet this hot guy with pretty gray eyes. But I couldn't go. T.T I had to go pay my mother's cable bill. So after public speaking, I picked up my cell and did a totally random thing and called my ex. Well actaully I called my close friend that lives with my ex. But he wasn't home. So instead I said, hey baby is it okay if I stop by? So I did. I stayed for only about 20 minutes...and that 20 minutes was the best time I ever spent with him. Out of the 8 years I've known him, those 20 minutes were nice. No sexual intentions, no fighting, just talking. And it was the nicest thing. He said if he could, he'd come see me tomorrow durin my 5 hour lap in school. ^______^ Yeah so that was school. *waves to jekkie girl again* She posted in the H.5.T couple posters of my baby and THAT BOI...T.T I only liked one. It was this one where they were on their cell phones and it was like they were talking to each other and in the middle it said I love you and something else I couldn't translate cuz my Korean is bootleg. BTW....I don't despise THAT BOI. I've actaully grown a tolerance to him...like...like you gain a tolerance to booze. T.T (with the same hangover feeling results mwahahha >D ) But yeah...I can stomach his appereance now...I no longer have the urge to punch him in the face when I see him giving his dopey looking grin. ^______^ I have started on my road to recovery. Maybe one day I'll use his name! Though I strongly doubt it. Speaking of couple pics before I started talking about THAT BOI, Maki-chan found this oh so pretty HyukTa pic! *does 1Tym dance* Don't it look real? I love Hyukta/ Second fav to Junta!! -victory sign- I think she got this at WHlove....I forgot to ask. Bah...anywayz...I took abreak from writting cuz I dunno...I needed one. Hahahhaa. Well my Babydoll got online and is now talking to me. I made her wait as I wrapped this up. But yeah now that I'm done, I'll go back to her. ^___^ One Luv~* Tuesday, February 6, 2001 - 08:32 p.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ] [ back up ] I still have to blog from this afternoon. Mostly because very little has changed except for one big thing. In the H.5.T forum a riot has broken out. Over the dumbest shit in the world. Boa. I can't stand the talentless little hack that sweats my baby Taya so hard....T.T;;;;;;;; Little bitch, you can't have him....get off his dick...stop swinging...watch out for you knee...okay thanks. Yeah but anyway, the whole point of the H.5.T riot is that some people actualy like her...(which to me is just as confusing as why ANYONE would like her AND THAT BOI) and they defend her against some people like Hush (my girl woo woo) who is only telling it like it is. Some one said "Oh she can dance and sing" But you know what, any well trained monkey can dance and sing doesn't mean they'll do it well. But I have seen her dance and it's not something I call "natural". No, no. Hyukie is natural, Hee Junie is natural...what Boa does is called "I've been trained" No, no. We will also NOT respect anyone that has a title song called "sara" and it's named after her STUPID cat. UGH -rolling eyes- that is just sickening. And stupid too. I'm very upset with Lee Soo Man for signing her...but then again, I'm ALWAYS mad at Lee Soo Man for something because I swear that man is the root of all evil. They say money is, but money drives him. Nuff sed. Moving away from the hate, I'm actually chillen. I'm working on chapter 8 of Don't Cry Baby which means I only have 2 more chaps before I start sending out the fic. Which is good. I need to write. I have no life, got nutthin else to do. Hahahha I have no life and no bf, so peace peace to that. I want some new anime...I bought more H.O.T...more stuff I don't need but MUST have. Hahaha cuz I'm a psycho like that. -yawn- Back to the Boa brat. I can't stand her...T.T she's someone I could NEVER like...I mean I don't like THAT BOI...I tolorate him...there's a WORLD of difference. But I don't have to like this little 13 year old brat that is just...all around sucky. Hate her...talentless hack. She reminds me of the Backstreet boys. And YEAH I HATE THEM TOO. THEY SUCK....-rolling eyes- I hate them...I hate a lot of people can you tell? But I will not end this blog on a down note. Taya is the best. Taya is the greatest. ^______________^ How many people just gagged? HHAHAHHA. One Luv~* Monday, February 5, 2001 - 10:44 p.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ] [ back up ] "Sometimes Love and Hate...serve the same purpose..." -Lestat I love that quote. It's one of my favorite...and rather then go through this big long deep speech about how the two can be considered the same, I just have to say this....it's all Kara's fault I can now tolorate THAT BOI -sigh- I GUESS, maybe he can have some good points...I mean he does have good taste...Matthew, my Taya...both friends of his...so I guess....he's...-mumbles-notthatbad.. -COUGHCOUGHCOUGHCOUGH- -clears throat- T.T I feel sick...so I'll change the subject, I just found that jekkie girl has a blog called oh my jooila I went through it today and I was mad that there was so much too read! Who knows how long she had it...well actually you can find out but you know what I mean. I read through it...heheh now I have to list the blog on my fav sections. Cuz I love my joolez~ hehehe though she nearly wants to kill me everytime I say something bad about THAT BOI. he has a name...-mumbles to herself-he has a name he has a name he has a name....and maybe one day I'll use it. ^_^ Aside from reading Kara's blog and finding out that Fly to the Sky's 2nd CD FINALLY came out...i thought about that. I bought their 1st album...and it was okay...but they say, absense makes the heart grow fonder....well not in this case. It just made me forget them. Unless my Taya wrote some banging songs on that I dunno if I wanna get them. Speaking of which, both in Kara's blog and jekkie girlz blog, BOTH said my Taya was talented!! *does 1tym dance* Duh...of course he's talented!!! He's just not a pretty face!! -squeel- Thas my baby....yes MY baby -squeel- I love when people give him snaps. Cuz he deserves it. Cuz you know...he's my baby. -squeel- I have to get Lee Ji Hoon's CD though..I think it's called 4.5? I have to get that...and I'm going to NY this weekend so I'm getting it!!! -squeel- I just want it for "Doll" and the pics that my baby is in in the CD jacket. Hehhee. Hey I also noticed Kara bounces now. She goes -bounce- I thought that was sooooo funny. Tell me why I could suddenly see Kara actually bouncing. Hehehehe funny funny. It snowed in Jerzee AGAIN. >.< It seems like everytime it gets pretty and warm, it starts to snow. But because it's also raining, I didn't go to skool. No classes for me today. ^_^ I slept until 2. Good cuz I was tired. I couldn't sleep last night. Hehehehe. But we all know this. I'll blog plater on tonight...but before I go, here's yet another bishie I share with my Babydoll. I wanted to catch him for a while and I FINALLY did. Mwhahaha. One Luv~* Monday, February 5, 2001 - 03:32 p.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ] [ back up ] It's not an over all orignal title on my behave, but I titled this blog, giving snaps to Kara's new blog page Coming Out I'm not intrely found of the whole Hyori layout thingy cuz I don't like that heffier....but leave it to Kara to make something I hate into something very pretty. -Except THAT BOI- I enjoy reading what Kara has to say...she seems a little bubbley when she talks to me...and she makes me laugh. Sometimes she worries me, but she's a whole lot more insightful then she leads on to be. She's down on herself a lot like a lot of people I know that are actually one of the better people I know...she thinks she's fat, she thinks she has faults that aren't really there. I think she's a bit disoragnized...since she's always rushing to do school work and her fics. But she's a talented writer...she once considered retiring from the writting scene...but it doesn't seem like she will, which I'm thankful for. I love Kara a lot, and I only wish we had more time to talk. -sigh- I'm dedicating the beginning of this blog to Kara. Mostly because I miss our convo's and EVERYTIME I see THAT BOI which I have being seeing lately since I got I Love Star 2, which inculded like a 10 page spread of him and a BIG stank poster, which is okay because my Jun Jinnie was on the back, everytime I see him...I think of Kara. Mostly because I keep remembering how she called him, "her Hoonie" -shutter- Ugh...i wrote his corney nickname. Anyway, I laugh and think back on the convo's...and I remember that one time I really upset Kara and almost made her cry because I had dogged THAT BOI so much...I felt bad. Not because I dissed him, because I made her sad. I apologized...but I dunno...thing's felt different since then. I felt scared about saying anything in a negative manner about him....I don't wanna upset Kara. So when she talk about him, I groan and make faces, but I listen and I don't make any comments other then -groan- -sigh- T.T;;;. But I rather not say anything bad about him. Besides...we all heard that old saying...if you got nutthin nice to say, don't say anything at all. I'm I'm living by this motto when I talk to Kara. Okay, it's painfully clear I miss her. But we'll move on. I finally got to talk to my Babydoll today! *does 1Tym dance* I found out she got engaged. o.O hmmm...strange...since she's younger then me....but hey, I wouldn't blame the guy that proposed. I don't call her Babydoll just because she's little. She looks like a doll. Just as pretty and petite, but doesn't act a thing like it. Babydoll isn't too soft spoken and not shy at all. She's a bit on the rough side...kinda mean too. But hey I love her and I think she's cute. Hehehehe. That and her perverted nature makes her less then innocent. Though she looks it sometimes. ^_^ Okay I shouldn't miss her since I'm talking to her now, so we'll again change the subject. I couldn't blog yesterday because pitas couldn't let me. I was highly upset. SO I put it off until today. School was fine...just one class in the morning. I'm going to NY next weekend at night, which is rare for me because I never go to NY at night. I'm usually there during the day. One time I went at night. It was pretty damn cool. And cold as hell >.< I stayed there till 11 at night. Now I'm going around 5 and leaving around 11. It's pretty damn cool. I'm suppost to be going for my public speakin class but I'm going shopping. I have cash. ^_^ I'm a little worried though...but then again I'm paranoid...I think everyone is watching me. Hahah though why they would is anyone's guess. -yawn- I'm almost ready to send my new fic out to my ML. Don't Cry Baby is up to it's 5th chapter. 5 more to go before I can send it out. Man I have no life. I'll get one soon...or at least I'll try. Hahahaha. But before I end my blog today, I caught Aya from Weiss Kruz the other day ^o^ Aya is hot. Hehehehe now if I could just catch Duo...he's hot too. Hahahah. -sigh- Yesterday I started work on my new short fic called Rose Petals and got ZERO responses. -shrugs- Oh well. No reason for me to finish it then. That's good because I don't think I would have time too. It's a two part fic, but hell, if people didn't like the first half why write the second? hehehe my thoughts, my two cents. I must be out. One Luv~* Saturday, February 3, 2001 - 09:16 p.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ] [ back up ] Today, I got to go into the H.5.T chat room which is always fun as long as the right people are there. And tody they were! Chibi, Mui, Gizmo, Aein and Cecile unni,fulawar,maki and a few more people. It was a great choice of topic too. We started talking about Tony's flat butt, then Hyukie's sexy butt, the Hee Jun's round butt, Jae Won's no butt, and Taya's hoola hoop butt. Yes we are insane. -bows- So H.O.T is now FBT, SBH, RBH,NBJ, HHT Hahahahaha. It was the best part. It was funny. The hoola hoop by the way extends from one of my fantasies. Hehehee I wanna watch Taya hoola hoop. Mwhah I will too. Anywayz, -yawn- because I was in the chat room so long, I ended up working slowly on my new fic, Don't Cry Baby. I have four chaps written so far, but I should have more. I'm just slow. I only have about 2 hours left online, and I didn't get much accomplished. But I took the time to blog today. And boy I miss my Babydoll. I paged her yesterday and she like lives far away >.< but I had to tell her something about James (cell phone cutie) and it was pretty funny. I didn't get to talk to her today though. -sigh- I finally managed to sell some of that G.O.D stuff...which is good. No one bought posters though which is what I REALLY wanna get rid of. The Jekkie stuff is all gone though. Hahaha. Well not like anyone asked for it anyway. They just asked if it was a poster or not and I'm like looking at the e-mail like...no..it's listed in the MAG section...duh. But ANWAY, I recieved the sweetest e-mail today. This girl, I dunno her name she didn't leave one was basically telling me how she felt the same way bout a H.O.T member and she liked what I had to say about Taya. She said I was real with the way I felt. I guess I am...but anyway, she asked if she she should give up the way she felt. I felt so touched she would ask me. So sweetie, if you're reading this, just know that, you should have faith. And if you feel that no one else could possibly compete with you, then go on. ^_^ No one can make you stop feeling anything. I'm still on my Utada Hikaru trip. I got another song from called 2100 reasons why and Paint it Black The only reason I got the second song was because there was this really good fanfic called Paint it Black and even though I know the song had nothing to do witht he fic, I still wanted it. It turned out to be pretty good. I have class tomorrow at 8 am which means I have to get up at 6:30am to go there on time. It's my only class so I should have no problem. I'm already kinda tired...damn sucks. It's not like I even woke up early. I had class at 3:30 in the afternoon and I woke up at 1. Hahaha I'm just werid. Okay so nothing intresting to blog about today. It's a slow day. Hahaha and I'm far behind. ^.~* One Luv~* Thursday, February 1, 2001 - 10:40 p.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ] [ back up ] =D~~~Droolworthy You could look at this pic and after you drool, wipe your mouth, -hands tissue over- and guess who this is. You could stare forever and granted it's very nice to look at...I bet you could never guess who it is. Oh and here's a better look at those abs. 
Lovely huh? I scanned these myself from I Love Star 2. SO don't steal. Hehehe anyway, after you shake your head and kill yourself trying to guess who it is, unless you know already because you have the same magazine, I'll tell you who it is. It's a total surprise...at least it was to me A babyface surprise I know I was shocked when I saw who it was. I was like WHOA. O.O Who knew. For those that cheated and just can't wait anymore, or can't guess, it's Jong Hyuk. That sweet little babyfaced boy from Click-B. I'm not actually a big fan...or much of a fan at that. I mean I like one song and they okay, they don't bother me and they don't suck, but I don't scream and shout when I see them. (That's saved for H.O.T Tee hee)But I like the boys. They cute looking...well some of them. Jong Hyuk and that other boy...the other babyface...I forgot his name I like them. And when I saw this pic in the mag and saw it was Jong Hyuk I was like WHOA...he got NICE ABS. =D~~~ I like abs....which is while I LOVE my Taya on a shallow level. Tee hee. But yeah, that made my day. Mostly because it was a little dissapointing. I found out my cell phone hunnie with a nice ass got a disease. It's called a girlfriend T.T. -sigh- So no cute guy for me. His name was James by the way, but hey I can, and have gotten over it. Mostly because I found out of I stay in the student center for a while, A LOT of hot guys I didn't knew went to my college come in. ^-^ happy day. Tee hee. No bishie posting today. Not really in da mood for drawn cute guys. I'm feel the real ones today. And I've fallen in love with this song from Utada Hikaru called Automatic Thankies to my Babydoll ^.^ ATTENTION All banner makers, poster makers or all those people that are just good with photoshop, KangTasyujah and I have decided to open a contest. If you can send in your best poster, banner, whatever to us, and it wins, you can win a free H.O.T (or if for some werid reason you want something else)prize! Hehehehe There are some rules though. 1.You are only allowed TWO enteries. 2.NO stealing! Be creative! If we find you stealing you will be called out humilated and disqualified. 3.Leave your name or whatever you go by so we can credit you. Otherwise, it won't be used. You can e-mail me to enter your things and it'll be htmled by KangtasYujah. The deadline for the contest is March 31 so you guys have lots of time. ^.^ The winners will be announced sometime in April. I guess that's about it. ^.^ Good luck for those that want to enter. I'm out. Time to go...uhh I dunno i guess write. hahaha One Luv~* Wednesday, January 31, 2001 - 09:48 p.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ] [ back up ] -sigh- It was on okay day today. I had art class and public speaking both were not too bad. The only problem was that it RAINED. And usually I have no problem with rain since I get to tote my niffty H.O.T umbrella. So I, being the smart one, decided to not wear platforms today and wear my boots with my bellbottom jeans. I got soaked up to my knees and my SOCKS got wet. T.T Don't even ask how that happened. I had to walk around with soppy wet socks all day. My feet got numb and I stopped feeling my toes after a while. Damn rain...stupid boots. So that sucked. And I didn't get to see my cell phone hunny. Boo. But one day soon. I can feel it. Tee hee. Well nuff bout my crappy day. I am sticking with my new idea! Sorry TonHyuk fans, I changed my idea complelty. I was going to make Sometimes Love Will... a long TonHyuk story but I decided to make it my next forum fic instead. My new long fic will be called Don't Cry Baby I give nothing away. Tee hee. SO I'm sticking with this one and as soon as Angel Egg is over, then I'll start my new fic. I'm eating homemade lemon pie...and it's damn good. I've noticed I'm getting fat. Oh that sucks. I'm going to start working out again...see if I can get the flub out of my gut. hehhee I don't wanna be fat for Taya. -sigh- Okay now for some goofing around. Since geocities is not nice to me, but Angelfire is, I FINALLY get to show off my bishies. Hehehee. I already showed a few at the previous blog -point at the top- But I have to make everything into catagories because I'm a neat freak like that. -sigh- Okay here we go. Bishies I share with my Babydoll Bishies I caught for my friend cuz I'm nice like that And FINALLY, bishies that are mine to -GLOMP- and keep to myself. MWhahah >) I have more but I'm being hounded by a LOT of annoying people so I'll have to do it tomorrow or something....damn. ^.^ I'm just so glad they showed up. hehehe. Laterz~ One Luv~* Tuesday, January 30, 2001 - 08:41 p.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ] [ back up ] Basically because I felt my last blog was so serious and stuff, I decided to make this one fun. ^.^ I'm blogging too much. Hahahaha well I have nothing better to do and I don't have enough time to write for the fic I FINALLY Got an idea for. Hahah Hopefully I'll stay with it this time. Last time, geocities hated me and wouldn't let me show an art file and all my bishies were art files and I don't know how to make an art file a jmp wutever file....so I uploaded all my bishies to Angelfire and usually that hates me too so you guys might just see a bunch of, images brought to you by Angelfire flags instead. But hey they work for me because Angelfire is twisted that way. =T I'll figure it out. I'll only post like four just in case you guys can't see. In case you can't see them, my bishies are Android 17, Larva, Kamui and Subaru. They prolly didn't work for you guys which SUCKS. I'll learn html right one day I promise....-sigh- One Luv~* Monday, January 29, 2001 - 10:57 p.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ] [ back up ] I can't count how many times I've argued with girls about who does Kang Ta belong to. I've often won said arguments and I always walk away, and I make either new dongsangs or unni's that KNOW I have him. I should'nt be claiming he's mine when I don't even know if he'd cast a glance at me, but deep down inside my heart, I really feels he does belong to me, and I belong to him. I don't believe in soul mates...I believe in really weird situations...I believe in connections. I believe people were put on this earth to find each other. And if you don't find each other...then that is an act of God, or faith or destiny... Long time ago, I had my heart broken by someone I loved so much. I cried for him. I felt everything I cared about vanish with him because he left me. And with him, along with my heart, he took my faith in true love. I stopped believing in love. I stopped believing in happy endings, in things that are innocent and true...I stopped believing period. I didn't believe in love ever again until Kang Ta came to light. I found new meaning in him. And I could probably imagine the skeptics out there that are rolling their eyes at what I'm writting and saying "Oh just another love struck fan that will forget him as soon as his career is over." If you're one of those people or one of these people that think "can we say psycho?" or "it's not real. What she feels isn't real." or "she sounds like she needs help." etc etc...well...whatever you're thinking, and it's in a negative context...fuck off. You shouldn't be reading this then. I can honostly sit here and say yes, this person who I don't know and for now doesn't know me, has had this great impact on my life and once again made me believe in love again...it's all true. I hate when new people will sit there and argue with me and say they like him more then me. No...it's not possible. I don't believe anyone could possible love him as much as I do. You can all claim it...but I can prove it. You may be wondering how....but if I was going to show it, I'd be here forever. I can, will and have fought for him. I have argued, bitched out and gotten in trouble for him. I have spent every last dime I have to, to go see him. And I will do the most by far most insane act....I will get his name tattooed somewhere on my person. Am I going to far? Am I crazy? Well yeah....there is no getting around it. I believe in faith...I believe in him. I believe I was put on this earth to find him. I believe he and I were meant to be. I can imagine all those people out there rolling their eyes at me or calling me insane. Well like I said, if you are then fuck off. You don't have to believe me, but when I say he's mine, I back it up. It's not just words. You wanna throw down with me....then bring it. Aint nutthin but space and oppertunity. So my claim to fame is my fighting stance to prove he's mine. I'm aware it seems pathetic sometimes...my actions, my words, all for a near Go that for now, has no idea of my exisitance....but I believe it's all worth it. It'll pay off someday. And when that day comes, I'll scan my wedding pictures. People may think I see nothing in him but, oh he's just Kang Ta from H.O.T, he's just cute, he's just a voice...but I don't wanna just say "Oh I tapped that. I'm good." No...I want to make him happy...for the rest of his life...and that's what will make me happy. I do have limits though. I'm not going to dump my entire family and all my friends for him. I won't give up my writting for him, and I won't do anything that forces me to degrade myself. Simple things in life can make on person happy. And apparently he enjoys the simple things in life. He's mine, as stated before...and come hell or high water, if you wanna bitch at me, you will go down. ^-^ One Luv~* Monday, January 29, 2001 - 09:37 p.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ] [ back up ] Feeling totally in love. I jest. I haven't felt love love from someone other then my friends and family in a long time. I feel out of love sometimes...and my love own love feels one sided. >.< I'll fix that soon. And even though I feel this way for now, I can't help but still feel happy. I feel all smooshy inside today. Anyway,now I have a bunch of pics to share. Mostly are JunTa or TonHyuk hehehe. Got lots of love...awww like this one.... JunTa love It has to be one of the most beautiful pics I've seen. Made by Purple. Then this one Maki-chan gave me. JunTa underwater I can't believe how much I loved this pic. It's so pretty. And this one is just oh so suggestive... >) Besides that sexual pic, is a very pretty hug. JunTa chibi hug But think it's all Junta love. I got sum TonHyukie love. ^_^ In this pic, I got sum sex goin on. Hahahha Gettin it on And just like JunTa in bed...TonHyukie love And hmmmm.... TonHyuk has too much sex...hahaha But you know I do have a clean one.Chibi TonHyukie kiss That is jus too kawaii. And this is just beautiful. TonHyukie angels. Can you feel the love yet? Oh and thanks to Maki-chan for hookin it up with the pics. She's so sweet. ^__^ hehehehe. But yeah beside those, I have some pics you just can't help falling in love with. Where you can feel Taya's pain.. Don't Cry Baby or seeing an adorable smirk like Matthew's liddo smile ^_^ Or of course the real deal, Taya's pretty face. Or just my bishie I have sum rather bad news to. My new fic, which is like my second time re-writting is STILL not good enough. I can't find the pattern in which to follow to make it good. So I'm re-writting it for the third time, keeping the title Sometimes Love Will... But until I can get a real story going on, I'm pretty much stuck. Angel Egg is being posted at Delphain, the actual fic Delphain is already drawing to a close, and so is Mo Deun Gut. I have made plans however to write another fic, with help from Haya. I'm not sure how long that will take though. I'm in the love mood....but not sure what kind of love. -sigh- Well I better get to work. By 10 I gotta be out so I can watch Queer as Folk. New fav show! ^_^ Hehehhee One Luv~* Sunday, January 28, 2001 - 08:15 p.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ] [ back up ] Well okay....I did actually write last night. I started my new NEW fic yet again. -scratching head- it's way better then before...I'm intrested...hopefully everyone else will be too. ^^;;;;;; Okay so I caught a few more bishies. Oh and I confused Hush the other day. Aigo ^^;;;;; Soddie Hush. Well she is now up on what bishies are. - For those that don't know a bishie is short for bishonen which means "pretty boy" in Japanese- ^_^ But anwayz... Like the great big dummy that I am sometimez, I forgot...U don't -whew- Okay that's all Imma post for now...I have more but geocities ate them...-.- so I have to REUPLOAD...oh wellz. At least I found where I lost my bishies the other day! ^^;;; Well I better go write....finally...oh and please forgive my server for being stupid if the pics don't show up. Not my fault...I know the html for pics!!! >.< One Luv~* Friday, January 26, 2001 - 08:42 p.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ] [ back up ] Okay, I was bored...really bored. I completed 3 fics, won an award and celebrated, went to school did the homework...well I'm about to, and talked to a few people who now all left. T.T So wut did I do? Easy...I goofed off. I re-checked Kara's blog and got the addy to be a bishie trainer...T.T I shouldn't have. I got a little carried away. I just caught all my favorite bishies and like one for my friend. Unfortunatly I just remembered I can't thumbnail ANYTHING....so the piccys won't show up unless you click on my lovely links. Tee hee. So please enjoy my over all stupidty. ^^;;;;;;;;; I'll start off with my anime bishies. ^_^ Well actually most of them are anime bishes...except for Gackt Camui! He was actually the first one I caught. >.< I'll share him with Haya. Oh and another one I'll share with my Babydoll is The OTHER Kamui ^.^ Tee hee. However I did catch Kenshin for her. ^_^ But my OTHER fav bishies...like ohhh... Android 17, Subaru from Tokyo Babylon and X,and Fiore from the Sailor Moon movie Are mine!!!!!! ^___^ I caught Tamahome For a friend of mine. hehehe I caught more of them....but I saved them in sum whacked off werid place on my compy and I can't find them...o.O Aish nice trainer I am. >.< Oh well, I'll find them again. They couldn't have gotten too far. Mwhahah -evil villian laugh- Well anyway, I'm not a offical trainer yet....but I will be...one day...I lost track of how many I caught already. UGH....well anyway, in case you missed the link from Kara's blog because YES I totally got the idea of doing this because of Kara, the addy to be a bishie catcher is here Pocket Bishonen.com I need to stop...I better sit down and think of an idea for a fic. I kinda lost intrest in the one I was working on...and if I loose intrest as the author...man you guys will be bored as hell. So I'm off to think. Hopefully I won't get distracted again. =P One Luv~* Thursday, January 25, 2001 - 09:34 p.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ] [ back up ] A long time ago...I guess maybe about a year ago, I sat down in front of my compy, and the idea for a mob story hit me. JunTa*my fav* verses TonHyuk. TonHyuk was the evil, bad guys out to ruin JunTa. In UnWorthy, Taya (my baby and the star of the fic tee hee) plays the aggresser. The cold calculating head of a ruthless, crime organization, his lover a sweet caring Junie that always waited for him to get home. Woo Hyuk was the other head leader. Colder then Taya because he felt no emotion, no guilt and he didn't care who was sent out to die for him. Lots of other gasoos make appereances. ShinHwa working for Taya an Jekkie working for Hyukie. Later on, even 1Tym gets in there. I goes into a lot of detail. But anyway the point of all this is, is that I entered a contest in the H.O.T Surplus page And I won! I won the contest they held, first place with UnWorthy! I was so shocked! Then I was happy and pleased! UnWorthy was one of the first few fics in my time I concidered to be good quality. But for it to win a contest...man it left me shocked! I entered it with no hopes of winning. I entered for the sake of entering because a lot of people urged me to. So I did. A friend of mine, i.d.o.d made a poster for the fic which is here. Poster for UnWorthy. When I first saw it, I was like wow...beautiful piece of work. I'm so happy!!! Oh...and of course the actual fic, is here, UnWorthy That is linked from Kara's Purachina page but it'll move soon, so read it while you can ^.^ (for those that haven't read it yet!) And don't be afraid to let me know what you think. -shakes head- I'm still in shock. Hehehhe But very happy! Okay that's enough blogging for today. Still got more stuff to do. One Luv~* Wednesday, January 24, 2001 - 08:36 p.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ] [ back up ] I had a wonderful dream the other night. Though it started out bad. Does anyone else beside me remember when Jekkie had a press conference and they announced they were breakin up? (So sorry to bring up the painful past Jekkie fans) Well my dream sorta started out like that. H.O.T had called a press conference and like millons of fans, the press, me (^.^), was all there. And like they all looked really sad and junk and I'm like oh no...please....and then hee Jun stands up and he goes, I'm sorry everyone...I'm really sorry. And like all the fans, and me start crying and junk. T.T And then like he shakes his head and goes, our 6th jib will be late like all the others. Everyone went nuts!! They all thought he was like gonna announce the break up! WOOOO Let's just say I woke up in the best mood. It's a sign. It's an omen...and I refuse to believe anything else until H.O.T sez it themselves. I'm a big believer in dreams and this is as good as it gets. besides when i went to see the H.5.T forum, it said, right there clear as day, it aint happenin' ^.~*. You know everyone has their doubts, cuz anyone can post whatever, but still...I have strong feelings. Besides Hush kinda pointed this out to me the other day but like wouldn't there be the biggest roar of all coming from Korea? I mean, wouldn't SOMEONE from the Korean forums say sumthing? A peep? I haven't heard crap. i think riots would break out if it was troo. So like I said, H.O.T Forever and ever. ^____^ Strong words, strong fan to back it up. And I'm not alone. I know this now. I don't think I ever was to begin with actually...but still....now I feel good. ^.^ I had class the other day I forgot to mention that the other day. I had art and public speaking. I spent the first few hours of my art class just trying to draw a Junta. >.< I spent all that time and all I accomplished was drawing JunTa's face and like Junie's body. I finally finished at home...but still =P. Public speaking was okay. My proff. is pretty cool. He's mad chill man. So I don't have to get a text book for it. I just have this thing about speaking about shit I don't know about/care about. It's hard to fake enthusiasm when you gotta talk about uhh...Europe. -.- wee. Today I had to get up at 6:30 in the morning, and go to English. It's FREEZING cold outside. And I didnt get any coffee either. >.< Now i have to wait 5 HOURS for my next class. And it's not like it's fun either. It's math =P I feel like cutting...but I can't. I have to go sometime...-sigh- sucks to be me now. Well mostly because I hate math. A LOT. I need motivation...like...Taya can be my proff and teach me. TEACH ME! I'd be there like everyday..and after class, before class, needing tutoring and like you know...I need to talk to my proff bout...uhh my grades. XD That would be the only way I learn math cuz otherwise I hate it. I still wanna write before I go. And I have nothing but time. So I'll save some blogging for when I get home. =T which seems such a long time from now! One Luv~* Wednesday, January 24, 2001 - 09:39 a.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ] [ back up ] I got word of the most horrible news a H.O.T fan can ever hear. Word is, they might break up. I say might because I still have all the best hopes and wishes that it's not true, and maybe, they'll be resigned. I'll never forget how I felt at that moment. I read the headline in the H.5.T Forum and with my heart beating so fast, and my head starting to hurt, my throat dry, I heard it was true. I couldn't believe it, I still can't. It feels so wrong. It might be true...and if it is, then I hope it's for H.O.T's sake. I hope that THEY wanna stop, that they are just ready to call it quits and walk out like legends, and NOT that Lee Soo Man is making them stop. Because if he is, heaven help me, I wish many bad things on that man. I got a chance to talk to Hush one on one finally. It was pretty enlighting to see a fellow, truely dedicated fan like myself out there, feeling the pain as I am, also wishing it won't be true but if it is, then it's for their sake. We try to think about their happieness and what's good for them. And like I said before, we can't always be greedy....it can't always be about the fans. I mean, we all knew it had to end someday. We just never wanted that day to come. I'll share my first H.O.T memory. I was at home, at the time, really concidering calling myself Hee Jun's Baby as I watched a Heng Bok performance on TV. I had borrowed the tape from a friend my 10th grade year of high school from a friend, that was fighting with me over Hee Jun. I was already in love with the song Heng Bok. I loved watching them dancin those white zip up jumpsuits with a sky blue shirts underneath. I cracked up when I saw Tony and Woo Hyuk doing that play fight thing they do, I loved watching Hee Jun bounce on stage...and then that golden voice entered and I forever fell in love. It never ended after that. I collected pictures, posters, postcards, photos, stickers, anything, even though it left me flat broke. I once spent 30$ on Kang Ta pictures. I spent 17$ on a magazine with a little teeny tiny pic of them all lookin so good. I even found out how to write Kang Ta's name in Japanese and concidered getting it tattooed on my wrist. Am I serious? Deadly. I'm a hardcore fan through and through. Besides, who wouldn't want their baby's name on dem. ^.~* My room is a shrine to H.O.T, a carry a planner made FAT with their pictures, my wallet has their pictures inside it, my cell phone has a sticker of Taya on it from WRTF days, I wea H.O.T's perfume on special occastions and I rock Taya's pedant 4rm the DNA thingy, and a H.O.T headband. Am I just a little teeny bopper? If I am so be it, fuck it, fuck those that doubt the Legends, and be damned if I'm EVER letting them die out. NEVER. The memory, will carry on. And those that forget and let it pass, yall nutthing but FAKE. Never real fans. And I have no problem calling each and everyone of you out. But I still hope...and I wait for each day that passes, to let me that my dream, the biggest part of my life, and the greatest joy I have, will not go away just yet. One Luv~* Tuesday, January 23, 2001 - 11:33 p.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ] [ back up ] Weeeeee! I had classes today cuz they started today. Unfortunatly since I failed last semster, I have to take the same math class over again -sigh- Which is bad. I guess I shouldn't of skipped it so many times. And you figured I learned my lesson. I'm a slow learner. So anyway, after I skipped my math class today, I went home. I was tired and I wanted to see DBZ because I had to miss the show last semster when I was in school so I wanted to catch them again. Of course I'm still gonna miss them when I go to school other days. But math is the worst way to start off a week. Tomorrow I have Public speaking and Art. I love art. Drawing is the only time I'm happy. Well that and writting. Well a lot of stuff makes me happy. Like my Taya ^.^ Speaking of drawing, since I had Toki Ni AI Wa stuck in my head for the past few days, I drew something out for it to make it stop. Sometimes Love Will... In fact, that's the title of my new TonHyuk ^.~* It suiets it perfectly!!! I'm happy. I better start today though. If I don't then I'll be behind when I have to start sending it. I promise I'll go to class tomorrow. T.T I can't afford to be bad no more. I'm on academic probation...>.< If I don't get C's or better I'm suspended for six months...aish.. So I must be good....-sigh- I'll try...for real this time. One Luv~* Monday, January 22, 2001 - 08:26 p.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ] [ back up ] -Sigh- I finally decided to start a new fic since the idea came to me last night as I was thinking about what to write...and it was like 3AM and I wasn't on the phone so I had plenty of time to think. Besides a fic, I kept thinking, damnit my compy should be in my room....cuz it's not. -.- Anyway, so I decided to write about TonHyuk. I'm taking a little mini-break from JunTa for the time being, because I just finished Mo Deun Gut and Delphain is doing well on it's own so far and that's a HyukTa my other fav couple to write about...so I guess it's time for a TonHyuk. Besides I never wrote a long TonHyuk. I'm kinda lookin foward to it. I already have the idea...but I'm not sayin a word until the idea is down. Hehehhe I'm mean with my work like that. -sigh- The only problem, the first one I encountered with this TonHyuk, is that, I need a title. I have no title and it's really bothering me. UGH I hate not having a title. The one time I sent a fic out with no title, I left it title-less for like almost 10 chaps. I hate that. T.T I will get to writting it eventually...but not today because my appa is home and since my damn compy is in my living room, he's like gettin on my nerves because he thinks I should be studying when I'm still on vacation. I've been on holiday for like a MONTH now and I swear he wants to annoy me about it now. T.T Parents.... Well anyway that's all for now...because I have to upload a couple of new pics and then get off online. Till next time. One Luv~* Sunday, January 21, 2001 - 08:49 p.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ] [ back up ] I feel fluffy today. Definatly in a much better mood then yesterday. That's probably because I finally finished Mo Deun Gut, Scars and I'm almost done with Angel Egg, the fic I titled my blog after. ^____^ I still love my Taya and everytime I hear my song by J called Confession I get all smooshy soft and I'm like damn...I love him so much. Thas my baby. Anyway, besides the good mood because of that song, I finally got the lyrics to Toki Ni Ai Wa, which translates into Sometimes Love Will. It's sung in The Adolensence of Utena, the Movie. I got the words in English and Japanese. Sometimes Love Will This rose is our destiny it has lead us here We meet again for the first time Whatever happens now don't forget the promise we made to each other, now that we have come this far Sometimes love will wound a strong persons heart but your dream will come true as long as the light inside your courage still shines Love will touch a strong persons heart, surely to change this world we're in and then everything we have will become one source of strength Okay now the Japanese version. This rose is our destiny michibikare fulari wa inra mowichidido deau donna toki moano yakusoku Wasurenaide yatto koko made kita yo Toki ni ai wa tsouyoko hito no kokoro o kitsuke mo surukezsdo yume o kanae yuki no naka ni itsumo hikari kagayaite Ai wa tsuyokohito no kokora o ugokashite ikuidakara futari de ins kitto sekai o kareru Lameni soshite suhetz wa hitotsu no chikara ni naru I love that song. I've been listening to it on my Napster long before I even got the movie. -Sigh- anyway, besides all that, I'm still sorta in Hyukie mode...I got like lots of pics of him...again. But the first one, however is all of H.O.T lookin oh so yummy from the Perfume CF. ^_^ Look at my Taya...=D~~yumm.. I love that pic. I think they all look so good. But moving along we will go to the yummy Hyukie. Sexy sexy. I don't know why but this is so..suggestive... Can anyone else see Tony there? XD Oh and this pic I forgot to put up in my tribute to him before. Heng Bok Hyukie ^O^ -Sigh- Then finally we get along to more TonHyuk!!!! I'm totally ready to write some romance because of this pic. Beautifully drawn... I love the art, the detail, and the love of course. And this!! This couldn't look more real if it was... Which I think is... Everyday that passes I'm more convinced that TonHyuk is a real couple meant to be, or already is. Tee hee. I'm so in the mood to find new Utena pics. My fav series ^-^ and I really want more pics...but I guess I should get off first. But I don't wanna. I like being online. Mostly because my phone friend has been dying on me lately and she's no fun. =P Boo. I hate sleeping early. But now I have skool coming up and that will get me back to sleep before 3 AM. DAMN. I hate school. But I wanna stay in my fluffy mood. I guess I should start my new fic. ^_~* Oh and on top of that, I have a hat on my head. My mom put it on for me. I'm in my house, wearing flannel, sweats an a t-shirt and she puts a hat on my head because my hands are freezing. T.T Werido...and I'm thirsty. Need a drink. One Luv~* Saturday, January 20, 2001 - 11:34 p.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ] [ back up ] Hello all, one, everyone who gives about what I have to ramble on about today. Tee hee. *strech* I'm a little tired today. Mostly because I was sick and tired of hearing my mother rant to me about how I suck at school and I better get my act together. I failed ONE class and she's all over me about it. Like hello..it was hard. Okay it wasn't I'm not making up excuses. Honostly, I fucked up royal. And because I did, I have to take the same class over again. Ha...I did that in high school. Anyway, so I'm not re-taking the same math class, because I suck at math. But the worse part about it is, that she cut off my H.O.T line. O.O She sed no more H.O.T stuff until my grades improve. Um excuse me? Are you threatening to take away what I live and breath for? Just stab me in the heart, slit my wrists and shove me out a window why don't ya? YEAH RIIIIIITE. Please. That's what my dad is for. He gives me cash. I'll just buy all my stuff the same way I always do. Through my friends. ~.~ I'll show her. Well ANYWAY moving along side from that, I got a call from my friend, who I just found out was sick. Aww...my poor baby. He said if he's not too sick he'll call tomorrow. I promised him I'd buy him some OJ and take care of him. My poor sweetie. I just hope my mom don't give me shit about it. That would really suck if she did. Besides all that, I've been utterly annoyed all day. Too much email and this one girl that just can't take a hint that I really don't want to talk to her. *sigh* I love my fans and my readers, and granted, I know I am somewhat talented, but I KNOW that Delphain has to be the crowning work of Haya, Kara and myself, but mostly myself, I don't know how proud they are of it, but I know I'm really proud of it because when you put three good writters together, you're bound to get something like this you know? And people can't read warnings....ugh I'm just so tried of having to explain myself over and over again. But I guess in the end I don't mind because, after all they are buggin me for a piece of writting that I think is pretty well done. So I guess I'm flattered, or feel special. ^.^ *yawn* I miss my Babydoll. She had this really nice layout for her page, all Weiss Kruz, and I LOVE that anime, but like AOL doesn't allow you to see it properly. Stupid AOL. And on top of all this....Egroups, the server to the G-fic ML I'm in, doesn't feel like sending Delphain to my readers. I'm getting emailed all the time to ask to have it sent personally, which totally defeats the purpose of having a ML. AND as if on que...I jus got another email...T.T NOBODY GOT FUCKIN CHAPTER 8. Oh man...T.T I wanna pull a Hyukie in Delphain and just tell everyone to stop being so God damn helpless and go check the archive in egroups.com cuz it's IN THERE. But I'm too nice. And besides, I'm just annoyed and I don't mean these things when I'm upset. But man is my head starting to hurt. And when I see things starting with the words, I don't mean to bother you...I know my head is going to hurt. *SIGH* Stupid egroups. Learn to do you fuckin job man. Geez.... I can't complain. My readers like Delphain. It's what I get for being the only one with sending power and, for writting something that Kara and Haya have perfect grace over. T.T but for now my head hurts. Today has been a stressful day. I need a drink. One Luv~* Friday, January 19, 2001 - 10:44 p.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ] [ back up ] Okay before I start blogging, isn't this layout nice? My Babydoll did it for me. She's so sweet. I would have bugged Kara but we all know she's like extremly busy. No point in buggin her if she can't do it right? Right. So yeah! Snaps to my Babydoll Haya for making this for me. And looky!!!!! I finally have one of those basic info things. Just like everyone else! ^_^;;;;;; hahahaha Okay, the point of today's blog is... Jang Woo Hyuk... He's been on my mind for quite sometime. -it's what I get for talking to Hyukie fans on end- So I decided to pay tribute to him. hehhe -clears throat- Ahem... Jang Woo Hyuk is many things. But overall he's jus sexy. ^.^;; Born May 8th um...(I forgot the year..^^;;;) Hyukie is the lead rapper in H.O.T. He also does a lot of the choregraphing and breakdancing. He's many things to many people and he's Tony's other half~ Well...in my state of mind and all TonHyuk's fans mind too. ^^;;; He's been quite in his younger days, giving that mystrious aura about him. But it seems the older he gets, the bigger dork he becomes. But that's all good. We love Hyukie no matter what. Hehehee Now for the pics. Because you know I got some. Hahaha. We will first begin with his sleepy era. He must have been damn tired a lot of his life... tired enough to fall alseep here... Or, forgetting all that, let's just fall asleep here.. Forget the fact we're on a beach.. But then again he's Hyukie. Would YOU wake him? And then he looks more comfy here... Very comfy... Moving away from that, we his very adorable era. Here we have a very easily amused Hyukie.. Check those pants. BIG. Then we have him just standing here.. Shocked but still cute. And finally, the over all best pic. Smile! Gotta love the look on his face. ^.^ Then we come to the Hyukie we know best. Sexy Hyukie XD Lookie!! He's showing skin! I didn't say WHERE he was showing it did I? hehehe And yeah...best pic... Very oh so sexy... And finally....the Hyukie TonHyuk fans know...Tony's other have... Awww look familar? Mad cute. Or this is a better description. hehehe Bet that happenes everyday... And that concludes my tribute to Jang Woo Hyuk. ^.^ Of course this in no way interfears wit my love for my Taya. Cuz we all know he's foreva number ONE. hehehehe *yawn* It's tym 4 bed. Laterz. One Luv~* Thursday, January 18, 2001 - 10:44 p.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ] [ back up ] Today, I did nothing again. My over all favorite activity. Hehehehe. I am going tomorrow though. That's good cuz Imma see a friend of mine who just got fired. Boo. But he's okay. He got another job. Well anyway besides that, I talked...*sorta* to Kara, who is still as busy as ever because she let her skool work pile up again. Heheh poor Kara. I do that too though...sometimes. I'm just not as concerned because I float through life. One of my favorite things to do, is stare at my Taya. ^_^ cuz he oh so sexy. And yes I said mine. People need to stop claimin he's theirs when we ALL KNOW I am the ORIGNAL *well prolly not but I will be real soon*..... Kang Ta's Baby You damn right. Well anyway, I love to stare and oogle him cuz he's just oh so sexy. Besides that, there's Matthew. And I just found this pic... Matthew on the end fine as he wanna be.. Found it the the Jekkie forum, thanks to Kara for the link. ^_^ He looks really damn good here. Geez...I'm linking WAAAAY too many Jekkie pics. You'd think I was a fan or something. Hahahaha. yeah right...-cough- And we all know why not too.... BUUUUUUT anyway....besides lookin at them too, I love to sleep...sleeping is fun..music is good..writing is the best. I watched DBZ -anime is good- today...saw Trunks...he's a hottie..and Android 17 also a hottie. And later on I got to umm...see all the Bishies Kara hs caught cuz she is now a bishie trainer. Gotta cath em all~ ^_^;;; *yawn* It's about 12:09 now, and I have horrible pain in my arm. It's about time for me to crawl back in bed, watch DBZ repeats, and then Outlaw Star -anime is really good- But I already saw it...so that's okay. I like anime. I gotta get a little listing thingy like everyone has on their blog page. Hehehehee I want one too!!!!!! -pouting- Okay...besides that I am also working on the sequal to UnHoly. Mwhahaha...didn't think there could be one did ya? Well there is! -evil laugh- To end today's blog, I jus wanna say, H.O.T jjang ^_^ Here's a funni pic. Hyukie and Junie being dorks... Got it from WHLove. Haya knows them so it's all good. hehehe Okay thas all for now faithful readers. One Luv~* Wednesday, January 17, 2001 - 11:56 p.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ] [ back up ] I can't remember the last time I was hated on. Mostly because I graduated High School, and I no longer have to deal with trival stupid, childish bullshit that immature people give me. Drama....anyway, still I forget that besides, a certain amount of my friends, you know who you are, are NOT childish and immature, though they're in high school themselves. Then there are those that are even beyond me at tymz. My Babydoll for one, Kara, my oppa Christopher...they all grown so far beyond me but they all know what I'm saying. Haters, piss me off so much. I hate when people do stupid immature things and think it's great to watch reactions. Once a long time ago, I felt so distrought when I posted at the H.5.T forum a picture because a few friends asked me too and some one totally ripped me apart. Though I never concidered myself a beauty queen, it hurts to be called ugly. I left the H.5.T Forum for like almost 6 months. And that sucked because I loved to go there and I missed the people that I had met there. Eventually after establishing Delphain, writting, and gaining back what I lost, I came back to the H.5.T. I was glad more people had arrived and the over all stupid ignorant people had left, and more enlightened people had come in place. Recently I noticed Hush. She's funny as hell for one, and she seems to have reched this note of sarcasm that can shut people the hell up. ^_^ Yesterday, gaining back my confediance, I posted my recent pic, and like i said, there's always one stupid bitch that's got something smart to say. I don't know Hush on a personal level, but she defended me. That was mad cool of her. I admired her for running to my aid though she don't know me either. I would do the same for her too. The point of matters is, though I was hardly phased by that stupid comment, I was touched to see someone defended me. I gotta love people like that. But Imma be like Drunken Tiger and say One for my people, two for my haters....I keep my friends close, but my enemies closer. The bitch didn't even have nerve to leave a name. I'm not phased at all. I got all the confediance in the world if someone is so much of a coward to not even leave a name. Stupid bitch. Anyway, much props to Hush and Imma quote her as I say,...look at you, don't even know if you coming or goin, look at the jelousy on your face, just growin an showin. I'm far to old for this stupid shit. And my arm hurts...ugh. One Luv~* Wednesday, January 17, 2001 - 04:16 p.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ] [ back up ] Aite....I didn't blog yesterday cuz like I have no life. But today I actually did something and that was pretty cool. ^.^ I was awake at 11 in the morning, so I dressed and got ready and my friend came to pick me up as we went to the train station and there we bought our tickets and bounced to NY. We got to Manhatten an hour later and we went straight to K-town. There it was painfully clear I had huge holes in my CD collection. I'm missing Seo Tajii, his latest one, Drunken Tiger's 2nd CD, Matthew's CD, G, SMTown 2 which I'm STILL waiting for stupid Angelpop to send me J's 3rd. UGH annoying. Anyway, I didn't get any of the above however. Is simply got Music Life 1 that came with the beautiful H.O.T History book ^____^ My Taya was so hot. Such a doll. Anyway, then I headed to a little cafe and had kim bap wit white rice. So good. I didn't eat until I was on the train though. I had it in one of those little container things. Then after that, I headed to ChinaTown. PHAT place for anime. I went to my usual anime store, Octopus Kingdom, and I was looking forward to gettin Utena's 2nd Session, but they did't have it T.T. They did have however, more Hana Yuir Dango, and Kaiken Phrase. 2 Anime's my friend has let me borrow and I have become addicted to. Oh wait I forgot. I bought my Babydoll the most pretty planner. Its Tera Panda. I feel bad for her short stinky X-mas gift I just had to get her something else. Yeah I think she'll like it. After conculding our trip to ChinaTown we went back home. Hey I couldn't afford to spend all my cash. =P Then we hit the mall real quick and took pics!! Professional ones too. ^.^ See... This is us. Me on da right in case u don't know.. I look pale. It's weird. And I should of worn my hair out. But my friend is cute aint she? Aww. Like my Babydoll. I don't make uncute friends I tell ya. hehehee So that was pretty much it. I'm poor now. T.T But I'm happy cuz I got my Taya and my Jinnie. ^.^ Woo woo. Hahahha. BTW, I finally released Delphain to the G-fic ML. I'm happy. It's getting good reviews. I'm glad it took a year to write this...I guess the wait and the time was all worth it. Hehehehe. Scars, and Mo Deun are actually drawing to a close. Scars, I had only planned to make it a 15 part story, and Mo Deun Gut, from where I sit, is just 4 more chaps before that's done. I have no new ideas for the time being, except maybe I can focus everything on Angel Egg. But then again, that's suppost to be a 10 part fic and I'm up to 7. T.T I guess it's time for a short break after I finish all three. I guess to give me ideas. ^_^ In the mean time, I'll be oogling Taya. XD One Luv~* Tuesday, January 16, 2001 - 09:32 p.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ] [ back up ] Okay, yeah yesterday I had a good idea! What can turn one on. I've been told like a million times, that I have a male libido. I think like a guy, things turn me on like a guy and I have guy reactions to certain situations. Like the opposite sex. I'm not all shy, giggly and stupid when I see a hot guy walk by. I turn and check his ass out an if he's hot, I'll make sum comment. Hahahhaah so guy like. Sometimes I can be shy. Sometimes I loose my mind and get stupid when I see a hot guy like this guy at my school. I forgot everything I was going to say to him. >.< He just smiled at me and I went duuuuuhhhhhh....@.@ But that is not the point. The point is, I made a wonderful discovery, again in the guy like region of thinking. You know how guys get turned on for some really weird reason by the plaited skirt, knee highs Catholic girl school uniform? I could never understand that until now. I thought about what those boys wear when they go to private school. You know those vests, khakis, and ties? Oh man...I thought that would look SO HOT on Kang Ta >D He would look soooooooooooo good and Hyukie too!!!! O.O Oh hello...sexy sexy. I mean they did pose for those Elite school uniforms already...I jus wish it would have been what I want. XD or how bout those Japanese style uniforms. Those are sexy too. WOO WOO...hahahaha I think about this stuff way too much. *SIGH* I luv my Kara. And I luv my Babydoll too. I'm going to NY this Tuesday and I can't wait XD sexy guys, good anime, and...sexy guys >D MWhahaha. I'm going to go buy more stuff I don't need and a liddo present for my Babydoll. I like spending money. It's fun. ^__^ Oh yeah my best friend came back from Kali today.I just have to talk to her. I should get off to call her and so I can go watch OZ...yeah I'll do that. But before I finish for tonight, I finally found that pic I was talkin bout before. Lookey, JiYong is loved ^___^ Yeah JiYong is the hot item wanted... I wrote a fic like that once...hmm...something to think about. ^.~* One Luv~* Sunday, January 14, 2001 - 09:56 p.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ] [ back up ] Okay, on Friday morning...afternoon...whatever, I got a phone call, breaking my sleep and getting me up. It was a friend of mine telling me she was coming by to drop of a few of my anime tapes she had borrowed from me and I could take advantage and give her back her tapes as well. No biggie. I got up, brushed my teeth, gathered her tapes an a new book for her to read and she arrived we traded stuff. But in the bag of my tapes, there was my new H.O.T tape she made for me, AND Pastel 12 with my baby on cover. ^____^ I love my friend. Okay so anyway, I watched the tape yesterday, so I FINALLY got to see Tony talk about his "line" over and over again and it was pretty damn funny. I also so JunTa was far apart =*( But TonyHyuk was still as strong! *jjang!* Anyway, then I watched Steve's new video, and 1Tym's goofy video. But that was it. I was like erg? o.O So when I talked to my friend that night...morning, whatever...I asked her why she didn't tape Matthew's new video on there for me. She forgot (so now I gotta send it back to her to add more stuff on) But then she told me there was more stuff on the tape I just had to rewind back even further. Three hours later, and about a million Outside Castle performances later, I was totally in H.O.T Land. ^_^ I also picked up on H.O.T's little quirks they have. They're so cute. ^_^ My baby still does that rubby nail thing when he sings in a high note, Tony is still a monkey, Hee Jun acts like a monkey ^_^ he's a dork but God I luv him, Hyukie got more into talking all the sudden. Suddenly he's all in the camera showin me parts of his face I shouldn't see unless I'm up all in there myself. and Wonnie has definatly matured a whole lot from back in the days. Oh yeah, I'm still chanting my H.O.T chants over and over again, and telling the stupid teeny boppers to shut the fuck up so H.O.T can sing NOT THEM. Granted after seeing them do Outside Castle a million times, I FINALLY got to see the MV which was lovely ^___^ everyone was so pretty~ I luv their MV's espically the end of this one where the castle breaks apart. Snaps to Hee Jun for the whole creativeness. Outisde of that, I feel better on my terms with Kara and THAT BOI. >.< But you know, Kara is her normal self...*as normal as that can be o.O* and everything is all good. Yesterday thanks to Chibi I went to a new forum called K-Boys. Mostly Jekkie but a good amount of H.O.T. The point is I found a rather yummy pic of Matthew from his 1st Jib. ^____^ Showing skin. Yummy... Leave us not pay attention to anything else. Hehehehe It's Matthew in all his....fleshyness. (New word just made it up. Tee hee.) I'll post the other one I found once I find it agian cuz I lost it. =P Bah...ugh well anyway, got a million things to do tonight, and since there are no annoyances, I'm taken advantage while I can~ AND I was all archived thankies to Kara ^-^ One Luv~* Saturday, January 13, 2001 - 09:45 p.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ] [ back up ] |
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